Do u believe in god & gve a reson y u believe & u bealive bcoz u thnk by not praying god he ll ruin u?orsmethn?

life is fckd upzzz......m fed up frm ma life too bored i startd thnkin theres no god......please help me do u believe tat thers anygod & he has writtn our past ,,,present & future....i dnt pray to any god but i satisfy myself doing sme socail wrk lke feeding birds & animals & help people....& mny more hngs....tell me please