Help I feel like a girl and i'm a guy, not a joke, please help?

I am a guy and i'm in high school, and i feel like a girl. Ive been felling like this for a year and a half. I love to cross dress, and wear thongs, and high heels, and uggs. When i get older i want to get a change. For some reason, i love to finger myself. Then i want to do , and anything with foot , and i want to give a foot job. I want to have a huge *** and .Then i would like to get married and be spoiled by a man. I don't know how to tell my parents, or if i should. I need someone to talk to me about this, and i am to scared to talk to a doctor. Please don't tell me to go to websites because iv'e tried that already, and i am not joking thanks.